Having a “Where Do I Start?” Moment
I just recently hired a babysitter so I can get more work done. So now I have to remember how to get some work done! That’s what I call a "Where Do I Start?" moment. Because one of the things that is so very special about my ADHD- and many of my clients- is that we first have to remember what we wanted to do, but more than that, we have to remember which system we were using to remember what to do. And then, every so often, we have to tweak our systems.
For the last few months, I suppose since my little one has become mobile, my work has been extremely focused: client calls. Take care of clients (check-in by email and Google chat; make sure they’ve scheduled and all that); write a blog post when I get a moment. Before Gabriel was crawling around like gangbusters, my husband could do work at home WHILE I did work at home. Then it changed; one of us could do work, and the other one had to pay full attention to the baby. Not just occasional or fleeting attention. We’re fortunate that our child is really happy playing by himself as long as you’re around him. We don’t have to sit next to him and show him a toy or talk to him constantly, so for a few meager blocks of time each week, it worked fine to take turns taking care of him while we both got something done.
Now, Gabriel tries to eat the laptop if you use it in the same room with him. Then, he removes the power cord if it’s plugged in and tries to eat that. Once you’ve hidden the cord, then he comes over when you least expect it- OK, not true, I always expect it- but when you’re hoping to send a REALLY QUICK email and gets some typing practice in. He has sent off a bunch of emails for me prematurely, and possibly concluding abruptly in something like LKJHHkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk55555566. If you get and email like that from me, consider that to mean "Love, Gabriel."
Point being that our general system for Becca getting work done had to change, so we hired a babysitter who hangs out with him while I work.
And now I have a desk that I have the opportunity to clear for the first time in a very long time.
And I have the opportunity to make extra phone calls.
And work on my pretty darn old website and bring it into the late oughts.
And I can do a little bit of work aside from the individual client stuff.
But what did I want to do right now? This morning? That takes a slow kind of remembering. First, I start to remember that in the land of inattentive, my mind is slow to warm up when it comes to remembering where I was at. Then, as I start to remember the steps I was going to take, I also start to remember whether I’m working from a list. Then, start to think about how I want to start keeping these lists because there was no need for one when I had no time to work off of it!
This is also an ideal moment to update that particular system. I’m basically starting fresh and in fact, a lot about how I work has changed- both since I had a baby and since he started self-propelling. And, so, we’re off and thinking about where to keep a list and what is useful to list; how to remember where the list is; and how to get myself shifted to work and started with work as seamlessly as possible even if I am a little sleepy.
Right now, I think I’ll clear my desk a little tiny bit while I clear my head on this topic.